- to manage or continue to exist in a state or situation where something is lacking
In this case... YOU.
It's been a month since you left and I still can't find the perfect words to weave together to express how I really feel (or felt that night you bid goodbye). You left my heart shattered and I don't think it will ever return to the way it was before. Everytime I think of you, the pang of regret and yearning engulfs me. And it sucks. It sucks because I can't do anything about it. I feel so helpless. Hopeless, even. How will I start fixing myself when I know for a fact that a huge part of me is missing because when we parted ways, you took that piece away with you? I still can't believe that all those years filled with pure bliss, sadness, unexpected moments, and unforgettable experiences are now nothing but mere memories of a great love I once knew... memories that I know I should be burying because they all still remind me of you. It hurts, yes. And I don't think the pain will ever be gone. But right now, the only thing that I should be doing is trying to learn how to live without you. No, this is not me moving on. Not yet. This is just me trying to accept the fact that you are already gone. This is just me trying to face the reality that this "letting go and moving on" phase will be sad and long. And finally, this is just me trying to get by... trying to continue existing like nothing ever went wrong.
(Definition of get by from the Cambridge Academic Content Dictionary © Cambridge University Press)
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